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Dec. 31st, 2010

Joan

Review of 2010

 
I had started to write a review of this year and it was so moany and depressing that I have given up.

Suffice to say it has been a difficult year in many respects and I am glad to see the back of it. One positive is that it went incredibly quickly- so much that I can hardly remember anything. For the best, really. I am struggling badly with trying to manage work (and the draining  nature of students' needs) with Joe, life, and my own need for time to myself. Nothing new I know, but it is  increasingly  detrimental to my mental health.

I have decided therefore to focus on the positives for 2011. Here goes.

1. Appreciate my time with my son. Too much of the time I am worried about what we are doing next; or clearing up some mess or other; or worrying about some imaginary disaster about to occur. Joe is actually a lovely little boy to be with; cheery, full of energy, loving and affectionate. He is a little delight and I need to appreciate this more.

2. Leave work. Either through voluntary redundancy or just going.  By July 2011. This is linked to...

3. Finish PhD. Draft by July 2011; final draft by the end of the year.

4. Health: sort out my knees and back; improve my cardio capacity.Drink 2 litres of water a day. Cut out dairy. Linked to:

5. Stop worrying and be more positive. My generally glass half-empty view of life is just draining and bad for everyone. I used to think it was because I have some kind of sardonic, ironic  and more real view of the world. But no. I am just fucking miserable.

6.  See more people. My crappy social inadequacy and shyness prevents me from seeing as many people as I would like but I do always feel better for getting out a bit and thinking about other people for a while.

7. Stop buying so much shit. My terrible clothes-buying habit is out of hand again; this stops now. Linked to:

8. Find my style mojo. I look like shit at the moment- either trying to hard or too frumpy. I need halp.

9. Listen to more music. I know nothing about contemporary music. Need new stuff! It always makes me happier.


ANYWAY. These actually sound quite positive when written down. Phew. Feel better now. 

This post is dedicated to the memory of my dear friend Shirin who would always tell me to be happy and who brought so much happiness into the lives of others. I will raise a glass to her tonight.

Happy New Year, everyone.

Here's two Christmas pictures:

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Dec. 15th, 2010

Joan

Christmas Songs Redux

I can't believe that I forgot this one! Tim Minchin. Still makes me sniff a bit.


Maggie Santa

Give up the dough on Christmas yo!

Having been inspired by Strictlytrue's Xmas downloads, I am feeling very Christmassy and silly. This is mainly because I have a GODDAMN HOLIDAY at last after not having a break since August.


Poll #1657212 The Christmas we get, we deserve

Best Christmas song EVER?

I Believe in Father Christmas: Greg Lake
1(16.7%)
Christmas Wrapping: The Waitresses
2(33.3%)
Merry Christmas Baby Please Come Home: Darlene Love
1(16.7%)
Last Christmas: Wham! (Haha NOT REALLY)
0(0.0%)
Other: PLEASE STATE IN COMMENTS EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE WRONG
2(33.3%)

Nov. 2nd, 2010

Joan

Two

BirthdayCollapse )

Sep. 13th, 2010

Joan

Still here (just).

That meme.



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Jun. 5th, 2010

Joan

Work work workety-work

Oh man I am working so hard that I have eye strain! I have had to send Joe and Tom away for two weekends in a row so that I can get things done.

I have root canal and a crown fitting on Wednesday. I am scared but also I will be glad to be rid of the awful pain I am in. I have hard drugs.

I have applied for another job but I am frightened of leaving this one because I cling pathetically to the self-validation that positive student evaluations give me. Ugh.

I have realised that when you get past 40 it is really hard to either i. lose weight or ii. see any changes through exercise. I think I need to go back to heavy weightlifting.

So tired, oh man.

My musical tastes seem to be back in the 90s- just bought singles by Chemical Brothers and Underworld, and I like the new MGMT.

There is a new series of the I.T. Crowd soon! I thought I would hate it but it is v. funny and has a most excellent female character. Ich bin ein nerd!

Rambly rambly.

May. 29th, 2010

Make up cartoon

Mark Kermode (again)

I'm sure you're all aware of Kermode's magnificent rant against the vile Danny Dyer.

Here's his rant about Sex and the City. I love, love, love this man.

The God-like genius of Kermode

Starts at about 1hr 38 minutes. I know no-one ever clicks on these links but please do. I am sorry to say that if I meet anyone who likes SATC I immediately hitch my judgeypants up and put on my cat's bum mouth.

Happy days, to live in the same world as Mark Kermode, David Mitchell and Charlie Brooker.

May. 12th, 2010

Joan

The morning after

Feel totally flat- not angry or sad, just...nothing. Have no real handle on the situation as I still can't quite take it all in.

Looks like the Lib Dems were just pissing about with Labour to gain more concessions from the Tories (it's equally unclear how serious Labour really were, although Adonis sounds mighty cross.) I think the Lib Dems will suffer badly in the long run- how many of their 'supporters' voted (and always did) to try and unseat a Tory? They won't do that again.

I suspect it will all fall to shit anyway. I cannot see it working, particularly (and maybe becuase of) the forthcoming spending cuts.

I don't know whether to feel sorry for Clegg or not. Initially I did, thinking he didn't have much of a choice- now I'm not so sure. He has played a canny game, obviously. But at what price, I wonder. Will the left of his party ever forgive him? How must Ashdown feel this morning?

I just cannot see this working...Vince Cable as Osbourne's deputy? What, really? Clegg as Deputy PM, to do...what, exactly? Never mind the policy differences.

Another election within two years, with a regrouped and resurgent Labour Party winning. Defections from Lib Dem to Labour? (Althought at would mean Labour sorting out it's real feelings towards (and relationship with) the Lib Dems which is by no means certain to happen.)

Things can only get better.

On a trivial note- Gordon Brown's children are such sweet little dudes. Aw man, he should have wheeled them out more over the last 3 years!

I might join the Labour Party just to vote against Ed Balls as leader.

ETA: Obviously my finely-honed political instincts were wrong about Alan Johnson, who has ruled himself out. Mili/Cruddas then, I guess.


Some happy/sad pictures here of the last few hours in Downing Street. Includes more of the cute little dudes! Gallery of the last few hours.

May. 10th, 2010

Joan

Party like it's 1974

FUCK ME I AM SO EXCITED!

May. 7th, 2010

Joan

Hmmm

Couldn't care less about Jacqui Smith and Charles Clarke but what a terrible shame about Evan Harris losing his seat (and to a lesser extent Julia Goldsworthy.)

Stayed up until 2 then listened to it on and off on R4 for the rest of the night. happily I managed to wake up for Rantzen, Clarke, Smith and Nick Griffin showing his true colours in debate [sic] with Oonagh King.

Then had a semi-erotic but disappointingly rather chaste dream about Nick Clegg which probably sums him up- he promised so much but didn't follow through.

Chris Addison has taken to calling him Nicholas Cleggolas which for some reason really tickles me.


Fascinating stuff. Cameron for PM I guess, with an election within a year... I pray for a Lib Lab pact with the price being Brown's head and PR but it looks like a distant hope. Mili as leader, Cleggolas as Foreign Sec, Vince as Chancellor...ah, dreams.

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